uughh i did not need that right now i hate this i hate having this fucking phobia and being so fucking terrified of roaches like i know theyre weak ass bugs i could simply squash but i see them and i cant stop thinking about them and my heart pounds and i feel like im cornered and helpless and now im afraid to even put my feet on the floor in fear of a roach being there

like i dont think ive ever explained my fear of roaches on here and just how bad it is but i am completely and utterly terrified of them and i have been ever since i was little and its really fucking frustrating because you see them at night on the sidewalks and on tv shows and occasionally online and even though most people dislike them, no one ever thinks about people being terrified of them to the point that just pictures of them or in-depth encounters can trigger panic attacks but it seriously happens

and its not insectiphobia because i dont mind other bugs. hell, ive held a maggot before and i used to feed worms to my fish and i think spiders are really cool but roaches freak me out so bad i hate it i hate it i hate it and i cant focus on my homework now because i cant stop thinking about roaches and suddenly i can feel every little hair brush my skin and i have to keep checking my ears like

basically tldr dont have obscure phobias because they really, really suck